Wednesday, July 12, 2006

On The Road - A Personal Post

Some of you may know that I am part of Orthodox Christian Network. I am the Development Director for this SCOBA agency, and we are traveling to Nashville, TN tomorrow to represent the ministry at the GOA Clergy/Laity Congress to be held there July 16th through the 21st.

My wife, Connie, and I will be going first the Greenville, SC so I can drop her off at her dad's house. She's 29 weeks pregnant and I didn't want her to be by herself while I'm away on business. Plus she wants to attend a baby shower her relatives are having for her there.

After the Congress, we will visit my home town of Atlanta. While there I hope to visit with my godsons and some other dear friends and family members. I will also have an important meeting with His Eminence, Metropolitan ALEXIOS, about my future in ministry in the Orthodox Church. Your prayers for this meeting would be appreciated.

We'll be back in South Florida around the 26th, and when we come back, we'll be busy getting ready to move to another apartment in the area with a bit more room for our happy new addition coming at the end of September.

Life is filled with change, dear ones. There was a time when I longed for life to "slow down" and "get settled." There is no such place if your heart hungers for spiritual maturity and "theosis." If that is truly your heart's desire, then change IS normal. So, now I pray that I will be patient enough and wise enough to see the opportunities for positive transformation in every challenge.

It is only then that one can receive all challenges with joy and hope. Otherwise, the constant onslaught of life makes one bitter, resentful, and spiritually small.

I wish I could report to you that I am succeeding in receiving life in this positive and hopeful way, but alas, I fail as often as I succeed.

The Church, in Her wisdom, offers me a path. It is the path of repentance and prayer. It is the path that leads to humility and "sober joy."

After I return form the trip, I'll give you an update, and I will return to the subject of repentance.

Much love, dear ones.

Pray for this fool.

Friday, July 07, 2006


A recent study found that “approximately 127 million adults in the U.S. are overweight, 60 million obese, and 9 million severely obese.” (American Obesity Association) This “epidemic” of overweight Americans is a symptom of a deeper poverty.

In the book of Genesis, it was food that got our race into trouble in the first place. The old saying, “you are what you eat,” was meant to reduce a human person to a mechanical engine with skin, but what it really did was reveal something significant about the human soul. We are really an integrated whole being – body, soul and spirit.

It should also come as no surprise to Orthodox Christians that it is also food that communicates to us our very salvation in the Bread and Wine of the Eucharist. As we, the Body of Christ, partake of the Eucharistic banquet, we receive and participate in the Body and Blood of Christ, and more and more become “what we eat.”

Critical to our understanding of this mystery is the power of desire. The wisdom of the Holy Spirit in preserving the discipline of fasting for us as a central part of our Christian faith exposes this very core issue of our own spiritual needs – What are you truly hungry for? When you answer this question in your own soul, you will discover just how serious you are about your faith, about your very salvation.

You will also be more able to confront the second part of this very human dilemma -the power of fear. At the heart of our weaknesses stands the driving force of fear in our lives. Fear makes us a slave to desire and passions. It is precisely the gift of authentic fasting that breaks the power of fear in our hearts by confronting us with our deepest need - the need for God Himself. Fears are tamed, and all earthly desires fade into insignificance if we are consumed with our need for God and His love for us.

Here are three wise principles that the discipline of fasting develops in each of us as we seek to allow the Holy Spirit to form us anew into the image and likeness of Christ.

First, Fasting reveals my TRUE NEED. When I refuse my temporary desires to focus on my spiritual growth, I teach my own soul that my relationship with God is the top priority of my life. The wisdom of the Orthodox faith calls me to reflect on my ultimate need from an eternal perspective. In the busyness of our modern lives we have so many “things” competing for our attention and energy. If we don’t purposefully stop and evaluate our spiritual condition, we will let slip that which is most important in our lives.

Second, Fasting reveals who I TRULY AM. One of the wise purposes of the discipline of fasting is to help me seriously mourn the sinful, twisted, and self-centered misuse of the good things to which I am saying “no” for a short period of time. I get to fast from certain foods so I can finally learn to receive them joyfully, as a gift of God, with thanksgiving rather than petulantly demanding them as my “due.” We live in an age where the spirit of “entitlement” seems to rule the day. Gratitude is a fast-fading virtue in our society, because we have failed to receive even creation and our very food with thanksgiving. When was the last time you said a prayer before and after your meals to first acknowledge that all good gifts come from the Father above? Only pigs run to the trough and feed with no thought for the Source of their food!

Finally, Fasting reveals my TRUE PURPOSE. It is in the spiritual work of preparation for participation in the Eucharist (the very word literally means “Thanksgiving”) that I come to know my eternal purpose and destination. I was made to be the companion of God forever. I was created for communion with my fellow believers and the Holy Trinity. In learning to fast and master my desires I am confronted with the ultimate purpose for my life. And I am called to make my calling a reality by God's grace.

My ultimate purpose is not to accumulate as many creature comforts as possible. It isn’t to achieve some notoriety or fame for this or that accomplishment. It isn’t to collect educational degrees so that I learn all I can about this or that subject. No, my ultimate purpose is to enter into the new life Christ wins for me in His death, burial, and resurrection.

It is the spiritual discipline of true fasting that calls me to a purposeful Orthodox Christian lifestyle and choice. It is in redirecting my desires, confronting my fears, and harnessing their energy for my good that I come to see myself and even God Himself as we were truly meant to be.